New Year, New Me

New year, new me.

Its been 4 years since I started this blog.  My goal was to blog about my weight loss journey, to hold myself accountable and to inspire someone.   It hasn’t been that easy.  Life happens!

For as long as I can remember I was always a big person growing up. I remember going clothes shopping with my mom, and spending what seemed like hours, trying on clothes from the husky section of the store. Going to the doctor and putting me on some kind of weight loss pill. I have always wondered what it was he gave me, I did lose 30 lbs from it, though.  The bullying name calling and always being called “Big”.  I have literately been on a diet for most of my life, and I’m tired of the up and downs of the scale.  I just can not succeed on any dietary program.  I have literally thrown in the towel.  I am mentally and physically drained.

This past October I was referred to a bariatric doctor, I posted before that I would  never consider weight loss surgery, but never say never.  I am now 4 months into the process and hopefully get approved for the surgery by my insurance.  It’s been tough, I’ve been an emotional wreck and been going through depression lately, wondering if this could possibly be the one thing that will finally help me to lose the weight and regain my life back.  This year will sure be full of new adventures, looking forward to sharing my journey.  I can’t wait…

New Beginning…Again

OK, I’m trying to get into the swing of things…again.   It’s been almost 4 years since I started this blog.  The reason I started it in the first place was to document my weight loss journey and help me stay accountable.  Well, let’s just say I haven’t been that dedicated. I’ve been on the weight loss roller coaster, losing and gaining, trying new programs all with mediocre success.  Every new year I make the resolution, the start over, the wipe the slate clean commitment, only to be in the same place I started 4 years ago. So I guess it’s time to change things up once and for all.

The truth is I want to continue blogging by sharing my journey and hoping to inspire myself as well as others who may have the same struggles that I’m going through.

Today is a new fresh start for my blog. I finally got my domain and hosting up and running. It’s been something that I wanted to do for a long time. I migrated from Blogger to the WordPress platform, which so far has not disappointed me.

So, let’s get started. I am currently going through the required 6 month bariatric health insurance process for weight loss surgery, however I am still not 100% sure that I want to go through the procedure.  The year in a nutshell started with rejoining Weight Watchers, lost 30 lbs and plateaued  for 4 months.  I was up and down losing the same 5 lbs over and over again. Frustration set in and I quit Weight Watchers again. I also did low carb, lost weight, but it is not a sustainable way of eating for me, and I also plateaued again. In desperation I saw my doctor, and she took the initiative to refer me to over to a bariatric doctor. To date I’ve had 2 sessions with the nutritionist, and have not learned anything that I already know.  I still believe that I can lose the weight on my own, the thing is I always cheat and lie to myself, sabotaging my journey.

I have always been against having weight loss surgery, but lately it feels like it is something that I need to do. I am so tired of being overweight fat or like the medical world likes to put it, morbidly obese.  What an ugly way to gauge someone’s physical handicap.  So this is my journey into the unknown, I hope I make the right decision.






Health Scare

Yesterday, I had the scare of my life. I had a slight blackout, more like entering the tunnel before you faint, all while driving. I realized quickly what was happening and pulled over. The sensation went away as fast as it came on.  My adrenaline kicked in, and I started to panic. I was in fear of the unknown. I started to cry.

All I kept saying was why did this happened.  I continued on my way and called my wife, she told me I had to go the ER, but like a stubborn man that I am, I decided to wait. I was short of breath which lasted the remainder of the night. I came home feeling fine. no other episodes, except for the shortness of breath. I decided to ride it out the rest of the night. I would go to urgent care in the morning.
This morning I went to urgent care and had a several test performed including blood work. All tests came back negative however, more testing is needed to get to the root of the problem. The doctor suspects my high blood pressure medication might be too high of a dose. Time to make more appointments.

Weigh In #2

Weigh In #2

     After two weeks of being on the Weight Watchers plan, I can’t say that I have been right on plan. It’s has taken me a while trying to figure the new points system. I realized that Weight Watchers does not base their points on calories, but on fat, carbohydrates, fiber and protein.  I was used to the old points system. I have also not been eating all my points, I get 71, this number is base on my current weight, height and gender. The truth is that I am not hungry enough to use all my daily allotment. I hope I am not sabotaging my efforts. I do however,  weigh and portion out my meals and snacks, so I know that I am eating less than before I began the Weight Watchers plan.

     I have been eating more fruits and vegetable and less junk. My only problem is that I have a sweet tooth at night after dinner, and I may have been overindulging this past week. Yikes, the scale will tell.
As a result I mange to lose another 2.2 lbs this week, for a total loss of 6.6 lbs with the Weight Watchers plan. This coming week I have to incorporate more water, I noticed that I am not drinking enough.

1st Week Weigh In

1st Week Weigh In

     Today was weigh in day at Weight Watchers, I got there early, hoping I could beat the crowd, but I was too late a line was already formed.  It didn’t take long before I hopped on the scale and got weighed, a loss of 4.4 lbs. I was kind of looking for a 5 lbs, but I’ll take it. Not bad for my first week on the Simple Plan.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year

Happy New Year,

One of my resolutions for 2014 is to live a healthy and active lifestyle. Well this morning my wife, son and I did our very first Commitment Day 5K run/walk. It was a last minute thing, because I was indecisive, like everything I do. So my wife took the initiative to sign us up. Too late to back out.

After only getting a few hours of sleep, after all New Years Eve was only last night and we didn’t get to bed ’til the early hours, we arrived. This was all a new experience for us. We picked up our race bibs and waited. A slight case of anxiety hit me. Wow I was really participating in a 5k. I had been wanting to do one for the past two year, but somehow something always stood in my way, but not this morning.

I wrote out my Commitment for 2014

My son and I 
I finished in 1 hour and 5 minutes
Our pre-race pic
So here is to 2014, may it bring peace and happiness to all!!!

Recap of 2013

Recap of 2013

2014 is around the corner and I am not where I would like to be as far as my weight goes. I’ve regain about 60 lbs that I had struggled to lose slowly over the past 2 years. How did I allow myself to to sabotage my hard efforts. I was feeling great at 330 lbs, but the stress of having moved back from Colorado to California was high. I was not working enough hours at the beginning of the year, finding a new place to live and feeling out of routine, caused me to turn to food,  like I always have.

I started my blog so I could write about my personal journey. A place that I could come to and write about my daily struggles and victories.  Well, 2013 just wasn’t my year to blog. I couldn’t commit time to it, and in the end I struggled with my weight loss journey.

Some of the highlights of 2013:

  • Moved into a new place
  • Did a casting call for the Biggest Loser

  • Took a road trip to Las Vegas
  • Finally got my gout under control
  • Had a sleep study done for sleep apnea
  • Proud owner of a CPAP machine
  • Work 
  • Family
  • Work
  • Did I mention work

I will hit more on these in the coming months.

Happy New Year 2014 everyone!!!

Weight Watchers…Again

Weight Watchers…Again

So last night I was talking with my wife about our plans for 2014, and it involved us getting healthy and active.  I had been contemplating over restarting Weight Watchers again. I have been on the program several times and jumped ship for different reasons. I’ve had success before, but failed to stay on plan and eventually gained the weight back and more.

 So my wife asks me if I was going to start Weight Watchers for the new year, and I made my decision on the spot to commit , no matter what.  I searched the Weight Watchers website and  found a meeting on Sunday mornings, perfect. I registered on their website and became a member.
  I arrived to the meeting and was surprised that it was a full house.  I was immediately made at home by the staff and members. I checked in and got weighed (cue: scary music), 390.6 lbs. WOW!
So I got my Welcome material and sat through the meeting. I was moved by the energy of our leader and members. I felt inspired and ready to start the new year. Here is to the revival of my blog and to losing weight and committing to a healthy lifestyle.